I’ve been a bit down in the dumps the last few days. I think this whole being poor/job search cycle is getting to me. I haven’t been out of the house very much by myself, and the more time I’m spending indoors, the harder I’m finding it to go out. HELLO AGORAPHOBIC.

I’m finding myself getting snappy at Mike and I don’t want to be like that. I’m not sure if I’m feeling resentful because he has a job, money, his car, etc and I feel so dependent on him. I spend my days sleeping, job searching, cleaning & repeat. Then when he gets home, I’m always grumpy and annoying. I care about him so much, he’s constantly trying to cheer me up and I’m being a bit of a bitch, so I need to snap out of it!

My wifey/besty Bethany is coming to visit me next weekend - I have that to look forward to! Also, my parents, sister & brother have planned a trip mid-February, they’re bringing up my car, some of my art supplies AND VINCE (!!!) so that’ll be good. I can’t wait to see everyone!

I’m feeling lonely, dependent and stuck in a rut. Need to get myself out of this funk, la la la. I’m going to go and get a free trial for one of the nearby gyms, so hopefully that’ll make me feel better! Blahhhhhhhh.